Xanga,

you've been good to me. You were there since highschool and I was able to catalog alot of good memories here. But now it's time to move on, well for now. I think what really pushed me was a featured post about cancer that highly illogical information that got me thinking, "Why the fuck was this featured?" and "What has xanga become?"

But for now, you can find me at:

http://mrdaveboi.tumblr.com

See you there,

Dave

(When I had a clinical day at the OR -- gahh, I'm going bald)

Crap. I have to volunteer first thing in the morning at the Reliant Stadium to help administer general physical exams for student athletes or even just the general public - but I'm still up at 2am and I have to get up by 6am. Shit - probably shouldn't have finished that bottle of Pepsi that Emily left in the fridge this afternoon. Must remember to buy her a new one next time she comes over.

Ok - so I'm due for an update, right? It's been about a year since I've typed anything on here. I have kept a passive role on xanga since the last post, just reading the different entries on the different forums, with Lovelyish being my favorite - which would be so typical of me. Before I start, lemme confess this: I've lost my imagination / my ability to reflect ideas deep down inside / my compassion / and lastly my connections to most of the 'gheys' I used to hang out with. This was all a gradual loss, but the last one was sort of a way to purge myself of my rebellious phase and start over as a more grown up Dave. But still, I don't feel grow up at all and I feel that nursing school has drained me of anything whimsical. Now I'm just a sharp-tongued callous little boy who still feels like he's misunderstanding the plot of the story. Shit, that is what grown ups are all about.

I was eating crawfish with Alden and Christina two days ago, and Alden asked me how I was able to keep the weight off from when he first met me. You have to understand that he met me in my first semester of nursing school in which I ate out constantly and was probably intoxicated during class more than once. Alden asked if I was exercising but I told him the truth. I have a VERY sedentary lifestyle. I don't run anymore and I quit my gym membership a long time ago. All I do is mostly eat food that Mommy cooked and stress out over grades and assignments. 

Anthony called me last week. I haven't heard from him in about 2 years now, I think. I called him back after I found out that I passed this semester and I was tipsy at the time. All I know is that I was left thinking, "What the fuck was I thinking at 18 years old?" But now i understand that I should never date out of my age range. Now I'm thinking about all my old xanga entries about liking this person or falling in love with someone else and it's all bullshit. I can't even bring myself to like anyone right now - I'll end up over analyzing the situation and I'll talk myself out of it instantly. Now all I'm left with is an empty downelink profile that I use to just look at random profiles while imagining the tone of voice the person would be using if they were on tv advertising their profile. I'm such a weirdo, I know.  But then again I don't feel that I can date ever again - I don't feel attracted or attractive. But i'm content with that so I'm not gonna force anything onto myself.

(Gross, and totally not my toe)

My gout is really starting to hit me. It's been so bad recently that Mommy put me on a low-purine diet. Basically it's a low protein diet and I've gotta say that its working. But after listening to a lecture in class about the disease, I'm a little freaked about the long term effects that'll happen. Sooner or later, i'll get bumps near my big toe made of uric acid crystal build up. Then later on, I'll get kidney failure cause the uric acid circulating in my blood is damaging my kidneys. Fuck -- i seriously have to stick to this diet. But that means that I can't really eat too much meat, no alcohol, shell-fish, and mostly eat salads/carbs. Delish? I'm not really looking forward to it. I have been sneaking in a couple of drinks here and there - but I'm keeping that mostly secret. 

Ok, before I try and sleep:

1. I went to vegas for this past spring break and I'm in love with the place. 

2. I can't stop playing my fucking pokemon platinum game. But I need to stop and start reading books or start getting some sun. Shit. Addicted? Maybe just a little bit. I'm gonna exercise my will-power and not train my little Umbreon anymore. Shit.

(Go Umbreon! I choose you to kick that guys' ass for me)